Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Breakdown/breakthrough

It's only been four days and I already want to quit.

It has nothing to do with laziness and has nothing to do with giving up. It's more of a personal discovery. I just don't want to study English anymore.

Why, you may ask? It's a funny story actually. I took an English Orientation class out of my better judgement (I heard it was next to pointless) solely for the purpose of having that 16th credit. After my first day in there this past Monday, I realized that the class is primarily informational and seems to be designed to convince people of the "wonders" of the English, though everyone in there already thinks they are convinced of the fact...

Now when I went into class today, we had a discussion on why we all chose to be English majors and what the importance of English as a study was. As I listened to my classmates go on and on about how "English is the basis of everything" and "Engineers build, but we inspire the mind" and more cheesy overplayed crap like that, I realized that the only reason I'm majoring in English is because I think I'm good at it. I don't see myself enjoying it if I were to have to do it on someone else's watch. I LOVE to write, but what I love most about it is being able to do it freely and without restrictions...

No matter what I end up doing, I will always be able to write. I want there to be division between my writing and my career.

Now as for what that career may be, well, that beats me........

3 comments:

Rukhaiya Amir said...

I feel ya Betsy. I'm not fully virginian yet. And holy cow, your dorm looks like a hotel room! SO FRESH. your white walls and white cubbies make my newspaper yellow/ wooden desk look like crap.

Malaysia:) said...

Way to do what you feel is right! haha Goodluck on finding your new major!

Betsy said...

Thanks Rukhaiya... and Malaysia! It's tough. That's for sure.